Go Home?


It has been a month since my last post here. So lazy, huh? I apologize. There were some stuffs going on.

Anyway, my exchange year will end soon. Happy? Yes. Sad? Of course! It’s not sad anymore , it’s heartbreaking. I feel like my heart gonna break into little pieces. I have cried couple times when I remember that my exchange year is going to reach its time limit.

Akhir-akhir ini hati rasanya campur aduk sekali. Dari mulai senang sampai sedih. Senang karena sebentar lagi bisa ketemu sama keluarga, temen-temen. Bisa makan bakso, soto, nasi padang, kupang, sampai jajan-jajan pinggir jalan. Bisa dengar adzan lagi. But, I also feel so sad. Because I’ll leave everything that I’ve built for the past 7+ months and never known when I can comeback. I feel like, why I should go home when I’m already at home?

Saya sadar, saya harusnya siap dengan hal ini. Karena dari awal pun saya sudah tahu kalau program ini ada batas waktunya. But, everything seems so hard to be accepted. Dulu, saya pikir saya nggak bakal sejatuh cinta ini sama Amerika. Tapi setelah 7 bulan lebih disini, saya nggak siap pulang ke Indonesia. Saya sudah terlanjur nyaman. Rasanya waktu berlalu terlalu cepat. Rasanya baru kemarin saya duduk di pesawat yang bawa saya terbang dari Indonesia ke Amerika. Saya belum siap untuk menata hati lagi. Saya belum siap untuk adaptasi lagi. Because I know, everything will change within a year.

Saya tahu, harusnya saya nggak boleh sedih. Harusnya saya senang-senang di bulan-bulan akhir ini. Tapi, nggak bisa dipungkiri juga kalau saya selalu merasa sedih tiap ingat bulan Juni nanti saya bakal kembali ke Indonesia. I’ll leave my home for another home.

Tapi, saya selalu berusaha untuk menerima. I always try to convince myself that there will be no goodbye. It just a see you again. Saya juga mulai menata lagi mimpi-mimpi saya. Saya meyakinkan diri saya kalau akhir program ini adalah pintu bagi saya untuk meraih impian saya yang lain. Saya yakin, saya pasti bisa kembali lagi suatu saat nanti. Mungkin memang butuh waktu yang nggak sebentar, tapi saya yakin kesempatan itu ada.


A Productive Week

Hi Fellas!

I apologize for being so late to update my blog. I have a reason, ok?! It’s all because I was so productive last week!

(Well, I want to post it bilingual)

So, last week some yes students, Jody, and I went to Beth El Congregation Synagogue because kita mau ngajarin anak-anak yahudi tentang islam. Sebelumnya kita juga dapet tur singkat di synagogue. We saw the prayer room, the Torah (Jewish holy book) that written in hebrew, and many more. We also had dinner with kosher pizza. Kosher is kind of “halal” for jewish people. Dan seperti islam, mereka juga strict coal makanan loh! Harus kosher dan nggak boleh makan babi. After dinner we went straight to the mosque with a school bus! And it was my first time. I was so happy, hahaha. Along the way to the mosque, we introduced ourselves to each other and chat! I sat with Laila and she was so curious about islam. We talked about islam and jewish a lot!:) When we arrived at the mosque, we meet the imaam. His name is Rasul. Dan kita pun langsung ngajarin adik-adik ini wudhu dan sholat. Mereka antusias sekali! Banyak yang nanya. Tapi banyak juga bercanda sih. Well, kids alway like that tho. Setelah sesi pembelajaran itu, kita keliling masjid sedikit sit. Karena kita belajarnya di aula masjid. Setelah itu kita pulang.

On the weekend, I did slumber party at Silvia’s house! Finally after a long time planning this thing, it happened. And it was the most productive sleepover ever! Because, we were preparing for our presentation on Saturday. Yah, meskipun banyak ngobrolnya pas ngerjain board, tapi we did it kok. Hahaha. Oh iya, when I was at Silvia’s house I realize that I wasn’t afraid of dogs anymore. Dulu, anjing jarak 5 meter aja udah lari. Sekarang duduk sebelahan juga santai-santai aja, ehe. Now I know that dog loves me :p Well, back to the presentation. Jadi hair sabtu kemarin kita huh presentasi di girl scout meeting. We set up  table for Indonesia. We displayed some crafts, Indonesia batik map, Indonesian flag, indonesian money, and our presentation board. We also gave some “ketan hitam” (indonesian black-sweet-sticky rice). And everyone loves our stand! Dan mereka para amazed sama uang kita, because rupiah has a lot of zeroes! Oh iya, kita juga ngajarin mereka lagu anak-anak loh! Tapi, kita agak ubah sedikit lagunya. Karena point kita di lagu itu ngajarin mereka counting in indonesian. Lagunya jadi gini:

Satu-satu, i love my parents

Dua-dua, i love my siblings

Tiga-tiga, i love all of my friends

Satu, dua, tiga, i love all of them

And you know what?! Everyone loved it! They were really interested in learning how to count in indonesian and sing the song. Mereka sekali diajarin langsung hafal. Si Silvia juga nari topeng gitu, tapi anak-anak kecil banyak yang takut sama topengnya :’D But, overall, we stole the show! Every single person there said that they loved our performance! And we were so happy!

And so, that’s my story. See you soon on the next post!



When Indonesian Kid did Ski

Hi Fellas!

I know it’s already Monday and I supposed to update my blog last Saturday/Sunday. Actually I wanted to but I couldn’t do it because…..


Yas! This Indonesian kid went to a ski trip for the first time in her life after -almost 18 years.

So, me and the AFS people went up to Morris, Pennsylvania to do ski. The ski resort called Ski Sawmill.

It was so cold when we went there. Because the temperature dropped to -27 degree celcius or so. But, the Sawmill was so pretty especially when sunset.

I began to ski on Saturday morning after breakfast. First we had a group lesson about how to walk with the ski gear. It was so hard for me even for just stood up with the gear because i kept sled down. I needed an extra time to do that. After a little while I finally could stand up. The next challenge was to walk with it. And the struggle was real. It wasn’t easy to walk with the gear.I kept sled and fell down so many times, literally, many. And because of it, the instructor decided to give me a “private” lesson. My instructor name is Trish. He’s such a great instructor and he was so patient to teach me how to ski because I was so dumb.

me and eisha before all the “pain” began

After I could walk and handle myself a little bit, Trish showed me how to go uphill with T-bar.  And again, the struggle was real. It was uneasy as I watched people did it. I kept fell down and fell down and fell down. Once I could go uphill with it, I couldn’t get off of it. I tried to gett off as Trish told me how to do it, but I kept fell down again and again. Finally I could get off of it and then the other challenge faced me.

It was sledding from uphill to downhill. I was so scared to do it and I kept fell down so many times. I was so scare because I imagined how if I crashed or how if I hit the other people.

me tryin to look like a pro 😉

After the lesson ended, I took a break with Eisha (fyi, she’s my favorite ski partner). We took a break for about two (or more) hours.

We back to the the hill after we got enough food to eat. And this time, I kind of proud of myself because I got better. So much better. I could handle my self, I could stop without fell down (even though sometimes I still did it), and I could turn around. And then I began to say that I love ski! This time, bad things happened to Eisha. She fell down so hard and hurt her wrist so bad. So, we went to the ski patrol to get first aid (well, it’s actually some ice) for her.

poor my eisha

On Saturday night, we played some card games. And it was so fun because whoever lost we would put some make up on his/her face. And when we played the joker games (I actually don’t know the name of the game, but it’s a card game that whoever get the joker he/she lose). And it turned out that Esben lost, so we put some make up on his face. We also learnt how to curse on another languages. I know it’s so bad but hell yeah it’s fun hahaha. It’s so intercur(se)tural learning :p

sorry not sorry Esben :p

The next day, I went to ski again with Eisha and Rocio (but she did snowboard). I felt like my skill in ski improved. We did it for about two hours then we took a break. After the break, we went to tubing area with Hadia because we got vouchers for tubing. Tubing was also so much fun! Especially when we connected our tube and sled together. After some times Kasumi came and joined us. We did tubing for about an hour.

We had lunch after that. And then we back to the bunk house and just chill and played some games while we’re waiting for the time to go back. Before we went back, we took a group photo in front of the bunk house.

AFS never tired of group picture

Ski was so much fun! And somehow I learnt something from it. Not only learnt how to ski, but I also learnt that sometimes in life we would fall down so many times and hurt ourselves but once we’re willing to stand up and try again, we would nail it! All we need in life is just to be brave to try something that seems “impossible” for us to do. Because we never know if we never try. Like me,  It seemed impossible for me to do ski in the first place, but once I tried to do it, it turned out that I can do it and I love it!



I Like Being Alone, In Some Point

Hi fellas!

Finally I write again, hehe.

So, this is my first-actual-post in 2016.

Well, let’s begin!

I like being alone, in some point, of course. Because when I’m alone, I can enjoy myself and everything around me. I feel calm. I feel so peace. I can think about everything that’s going on. Or thinking about the future. Or do some reflection about what I’ve done in the past. I like being alone because I can be myself without worrying about what people think about me.

Speaking about being alone, I like to go somewhere alone, by myself. Because I can go wherever I wanna go. Like today…

So, today I go to Chinatown by myself. Actually I was asking some of my friends to go with me, but it didn’t go as I expected. They have some business to do. And then I decided to go by myself.

I chose Chinatown because it’s almost Chinese New Year, so I expected there’d be a celebration there, or at least, they have some lampions (chinese lantern), but, then, again, it’s not as I expected.

Chinatown gate

After I get out from the metro station, I see the famous Chinatown gate. But no lampion. Not even one. I feel disappointed somehow, but, hell yeah, I’m here, let’s explore!

I decide to walk around. I have no destination. I just keep walking until I see a big building that attracts me; the MLK library! I come inside to the library and go upstair to the second floor. I walk around to find the teen section. But unfortunately it’ll be close in 15 minutes. So, I decide to go out and walk again. An idea suddenly come up to my brain; go to the spy museum! The museum is actually near the other metro exit, but because I’m bad at reading a map, I walk far away from the museum and it’s past 5. The museum close at 6. I don’t wanna spend $22 for one hour visit, that’s too much, and I’m broke. I’m keep walking and walking and then I arrive in the regal theater. I don’t go to the theater tho, I just walk around there and “accidentally” find a street crepe. The crepe is soooooo good!! I get the nutella banana one. It costs about $6 but it’s so damn yummy, so no regret! After get the yummy crepe, I go back to the metro station. On the way back, I see a candy store named It’s Sugar. Because it looks so “cute”, I decide to go there and see if there’s something that I can buy. This store is so “cool” it’s like a candy heaven y’know?! It also sell unique things, like a fart toy and a cricket snack which is making me shake my head. Like why they sell a cricket snack. I mean cricket? Who wanna eat cricket?! After walk around the store for about 15 minutes, I finally buy some mix candies, bean boozle, and sherlock’s bar. Those costs about $12. I finally go to the metro station because it’s almost 7. It’s almost dinner time and I want to eat at home. I don’t want to spend money anymore.

street crepe


Those yummy bean boozle
Mix candies+bean boozle+sherlock’s bar


Da crickets tho


At metro station, I meet my friends! I meet Achraf, Egeman, Eisha, Corra, Kasumi, and Maddalena. And fyi, I meet Eisha coincidentally twice this week. And our meeting turns out to be a long walk. I follow Achraf, Egeman, and Maddalena. Achraf and Egeman wanna go to see a play in a theater, and because me and Maddalena don’t wanna go there, we decide to go to Metro Center and go home.

Well, that’s my Saturday night story.

See you on my next post!



New York is Never Enough

Hi fellas!

It has been a month since my last post, well, I apologize.

First I wanna say Happy Eid Al-Mawlid An-Nabawi and Merry Christmas!

Time flies so fast, in about 6 days we will have a new beginning. I’m kinda happy and sad. But hey! I don’t write this post to talk about it. I wanna talk about New York! So here we go;

Two weeks ago my AFS chapter had a trip to New York and because I really wanna go there since forever, so I decided to go. New York isn’t not that far from WDC. It’s just 4 hours driving. It’s like Malang-Lumajang without any traffic jam (yea, of course).

In New York i just went to some places in the town because I got lost with my friend, Margaux, there. Yea, we went along the way to New York and we got lost. But, hey it was fun. I mean got lost in New York, isn’t it sound fun??! Over there, Me and my squad (wohoo!) went to Central Park. In Central Park we saw New York City from the high rock. So in the Central Park there are a lot of “high rock”. And from the rock we can see (almost) the entire Manhattan. Beside that there are some places that we can visit there. Like the zoo, ice skating ring, and etc. Before we went to the Central Park, Me and Margaux went to Rockfeller Park to meet the other after we got lost. We also went to Broadway, and of course Time Square! It was so much fun there. I mean hey! It’s Broadway and Time Square. Being In Time Square was making me amazed. MY DREAM CAME TRUE! And it was just unbelievable. I could stand in Time Square and felt the atmosphere of New York. Someone said, “If you can make it here (New York), yu can make it anywhere.” And I’ve made it there. The question now is: Can I make it anywhere else? I hope I can.




Well, when I was there I didn’t get the opportunity to see The Empire State Building or Uno Headquarter or 9/11 Memorial Park or The Statue of Liberty, but for me those things are the reason I should come back to New York soon someday.

New York is never enough. There are always some reasons to go back to New York. See you soon, New York!


Hi fellas!

First I wanna say Happy Thankgiving for y’all guys. Be blessed for all that you’ve gotten in your life.

Okay so, because so many people ask me “Sekolah di Amerika itu gimana sih?” so I decide to write this post. I hope it help answer your curiousness. And I will write it in Indonesian. Check it out!

[P.S. What I write down below are based on what I’ve experienced in my school; Woodrow Wilson Senior High School]

No Uniform

Iya, di Amerika sekolahnya nggak pake seragam. Pake apa aja boleh. Mau pake pajama, boleh. Pake tanktop, boleh. Pake beha doang juga selaw. Yang penting mah pake baju aja. Eh tapi nggak semua sekolah bisa sebebas ini. Biasanya yang nggak pakai seragam itu public school. Kalau private school biasanya mereka pakai seragam. Bukan seragam semacam seragam di Indonesia. Tapi seragam disini lebih ke kaos polo yang ada nama sekolah+celana kain. Atau baik public or private school biasanya punya dresscode gitu; what to wear or not to wear. Tapi, di sekolahku nggak ada dresscode, jadinya ya bebas mau pakai apa aja.

Choose the Subjects

This is what I like from American HS; I can choose what I wanna learn. Jadi disini itu kita bisa milih pelajaran spa yang kita suka. Even pelajaran wajib masih bisa milih. Jadi pelajaran wajib di sekolah itu ada empat; History, Math, Science, and English. Dan itu bisa milih, misalkan matematika mau ambil Algebra or Trigonometry or Geometry or Pre Calc or Calculus. Dan menurutku ini efisien banget karena kita belajar sesuai apa yang kita mau. Kita juga jadi lebih fokus. Nggak seperti di Indonesia yang mana kita diwajibkan bisa semua pelajaran, padahal belum tentu kita suka sama pelajaran itu. Kayak saya harus bisa kimia karena saya anak IPA, padahal saya nggak suka sama kimia. Jadi saya terpaksa belajar kimia karena tuntutan kelas IPA. Sorry not sorry for saying that but that’s the fact tho.

A Lot of Subjects

Yes in America we have a lot of subjects that we can choose! Mulai dari yang bikin pusing kayak AP Calculus sampai yang asik-asik kayak Film Making. Saking banyaknya jadi bingung mau ambil course yang apa. But menurutku ini menguntungkan sih karena bisa belajar spa yang kita suka dan sesuai sama passion kita. Dan lagi disini lebih banyak praktek daripada teorinya. Jadi menurutku berguna banget buat di dunia kerja nanti. Karena kita tau cara aplikasi ilmu kita. Nggak cuma bisa teori tapi nggak bisa nge-aplikasi-in di kehidupan sehari-hari.

No Seniority

Ini nih yang keren. Nggak ada senioritas di Amerika. Karena apa? Karena nggak ada yang gila hormat. Di Indonesia kalau udah jadi kakak kelas, gila hormatnya minta ampun. Selalu pengen orang-orang melihat dirinya sebagai “kakak kelas”. Kalau di Amerika mah boro-boro, kadang sekelas isinya mulai dari freshman (9th grade) sampai senior (12th grade). Jadinya nggak ketahuan mana adik kelas mana kakak kelas. Dan itu asik ajasih buatku.

The Exam

Jadi disini itu ujian-ujiannya langsung waktu akhir tahun. Dan biasanya ujiannya adalah AP Exam. Terus lagi disini ujiannya kalau essay kita harus bener-bener ngejelasin sampai mendalam, pokoknya bener-bener detail gitu. Oh iya disini kita ada yang namanya PSAT or ACT. Itu tuh kalau di Indonesia semacam SBMPTN. Tapi kita ambil testnya waktu kelas 11 atau 12. Dan ngambilnya setahuku sih bisa berkali-kali sampai memenuhi target nilai. Selain ambil test itu buat masuk kuliah kita harus bikin portofolio (biasanya essay).

Okay so all that I can share with you guys. I hope it help you to know more about HIgh School in America. See you on the next post! Xoxo.

Four Weeks in A Row


I’m so sorry for the-very-late-update. I’ve been so busy (or lazy?wkwk). So, I will post what happened in the last 4 weeks. Check it out!

Homecoming Week (October 20-24, 2015)

Homecoming is a culture in American School. In homecoming week, we dressed up in particular themes like “Favorite Decade” or “Class Color”. But well, in my school only 5% who dressed up during the homecoming week. I thought it because they were too lazy too dressed up. I was not totally dressed up, I just dressed up in three out of four themes; Twin days (that came out as triplets for me, Lizzy, and Nazrin), DC Pride, and Class Colour. In the last day before the homecoming party, we had a pep rally. All the classes worn their class color shirt (Class of 2017 worn White!) and we did a face painting. We gathered in the gym and did a lot of fun.

The main event of homecoming week is homecoming party. Sadly, I couldn’t go to the Wilson’s homecoming party but TC’s homecoming instead. Well it was worth it though. It was the first real party ever haha.

HALLOWEEN! (October 31, 2015)

TRICK or TREAT? Halloween was so fun! I carved a pumpkin and all the kids that came to do trick or treat in my home loved it. I dressed up as a witch. I went to a halloween party in Egemen’s house. I met another AFSers there. We did trick or treat and turned out got lost in the neighborhood. I also fell down in someone’s house stairs-_-. But i didn’t care because I got a lot of candies! Yeay!. After did trick or treat and got to Egemen’s house safely, we had s’mores, and watched a cheesy-zombie-movies entittled Warm Bodies. I really love Halloween! I hope that was not my last halloween.

National Public Radio (November 11, 2015)

It was my officially 3 months living in USA. I was so happy yet sad. I was happy because I can survive till 3 month but it was mean that only 7 months left. Well anyway, I had a private tour to National Public Radio with my YES/FLEX friends. The NPR was totally so cool! I like that. That day also the first day I met my Indonesian friend, Cathay, after 3 months. I was so happy! Because she was healing my indonesian-friend-sick. And I also could speak bahasa indonesia properly haha.

Indonesian Cultural Night 2015

Indonesian Cultural Night 2015 was an event that held by PERMIAS (Persatuan Mahasiswa Indonesia di Amerika Serikat) DC. It was my second time volunteering and I got directly 9++ hours hahaha. I also got a committee tag and it was the coolest committee tag that I’ve so far. The event took place in the Embassy of Indonesia. My Indonesian friend, Silvia, also did volunteering. And I was so happy because I could meet her. I also met a lot of Indonesian people and made friends with some of them. And the best part of this event were the foods! Yes, I could eat sate kambing and tempe goreng, not just once, but a couple times haha. I also could drink es cendol. I had a really fun night!

Okay, that’s all I can share with you. See you in my next post! Xoxo.