I always feel like I am not good enough. From my appearance, brain, to attitude. I always feel like I’m not good enough to receive good things. It’s like I don’t deserve those things.
I know, I’m not supposed to feel that way. It’s just my anxiety self always make me feel like that. And when it happens, I can be so stress and moody. Yes, if you’re happening to interact with me and I’m in such of a bad mood and little bit crancky, it could be one of those days when anxiety hits me. Sadly, I’m not the one who can easily talk to others. I’m that quite person when it comes to something personal like this. And yes, it makes thing worse.
But here’s the thing, if you know me well, you will know that I always share some positive quotes or thoughts. I always say “love yourself”, “encourage yourself to be the best of you”, and others positive stuff. All those good things I share to you, are actually for myself -too. I search for comfort on those words. So I can feel better. So I can feel that I’m worth it. It might sound so sad to you, but, believe me, it’s not. Because I realize, in the end, the one who can save me is myself (with the help of God, obviously). Therefore, when I feel like the anxiety attacks me, I will jump to those positive words to calm myself down and sometimes I share to you. Just so if you feel the same way, I hope I can make you feel better.
Why I share this? Because I know that somebody out there might feel the same way. Maybe we’re not in the same -exact- battle, but you know.
“Hi, hello, to you who feel the same way. I know it’s not easy for us to fight this, to be open about this to anyone. But, you know what? We’re not alone. Somebody out there might have the same battle as us and they won. If they can, why can’t we? Please stay strong and believe that we can be better.”
Whenever it happens, just go find distractions and search for comfort. Calm yourself by doing something you like. You can tell someone if you want to or you can just simply read positive things like me. Don’t let it takes over your mind and soul.
We are stronger than our anxieties and surely, we will win in the battle ground.